Here's a quote from song by Bruce Cockburn that's been meaning alot to me this week.
"Bloody nose and burning eyes
Raised in laughter to the skies
I've been in trouble but I'm ok.
Been through the wringer but I'm ok.
Walls are falling but I'm ok.
Under the Mercy and I'm ok."
~Fascist Architecture
Friday, January 09, 2004
Tuesday, January 06, 2004
Okay, so the AC adapter on my laptop has split, and I can 't plug the computer in. I had to call Dell and order a new one. It cost me $70. Looks like I'll be putting in extra hours at the bug range. I won't have a computer for a week.
"Slow down, you move to fast. Try to make the moment last."
Simon and Garfunkel.
Okay, so I walked to class this morning and my hair froze, but while I was taking the 20 min hike to dance class I did some thinking. I've found myself worried lately about things I can't help, like my future, and I kind of settled into these "whoa nora, one day at a time" type thoughts. It was comforting, kind of like a call to slow down and just take each moment as it is, without thinking too much about the sidelines. Does that make sense? I just suddenly had this desire to be more present, where I was, rather than off in my other world that I spend most of my time in--my world of pondering. I think these thoughts were influenced by Amelie, which I watched the other night. Living like that, literally in each moment, would be impossible I think (esp. when I'm bored. I'm thankful for my imagination then, and right before I go to sleep I like to wake-dream), but I think it would be a good thing to be a little more aware of what's going around me, rather that viewing every noise and sight as an interruption to what's going on in my head. Because how am I going to be a writer if I never notice anything?
The next thought I had was to be more honest, and I think an attempt to take every moment as it comes would help. Not necessarily more honest with other people, because I don't consider myself to be a phoney person, but kind of like, more honest with myself. Maybe more honest with God. I think I've come along way in this area, but I suppose there is always room for improvement. But here's the thought that occured to me. "Be more honest, and talk less." Hah. Not a bad one though. There are times I feel like I talk so much, I'm not at all aware of the world outside my head. I want to improve that.
Heh, so with all this "thinking" what did I notice around me? Not much. I noticed that I was cold, my hair was frozen, and I was kind of happy to be going to a dance class and thinking on the terms of being healthy again.
Okay, now I have to go to class. I have Acting for the Camera (...) and Acting with Phillip Kerr (...). Yay for Theater. Then I have American Drama. Yay for more theater. Yeah.
"Slow down, you move to fast. Try to make the moment last."
Simon and Garfunkel.
Okay, so I walked to class this morning and my hair froze, but while I was taking the 20 min hike to dance class I did some thinking. I've found myself worried lately about things I can't help, like my future, and I kind of settled into these "whoa nora, one day at a time" type thoughts. It was comforting, kind of like a call to slow down and just take each moment as it is, without thinking too much about the sidelines. Does that make sense? I just suddenly had this desire to be more present, where I was, rather than off in my other world that I spend most of my time in--my world of pondering. I think these thoughts were influenced by Amelie, which I watched the other night. Living like that, literally in each moment, would be impossible I think (esp. when I'm bored. I'm thankful for my imagination then, and right before I go to sleep I like to wake-dream), but I think it would be a good thing to be a little more aware of what's going around me, rather that viewing every noise and sight as an interruption to what's going on in my head. Because how am I going to be a writer if I never notice anything?
The next thought I had was to be more honest, and I think an attempt to take every moment as it comes would help. Not necessarily more honest with other people, because I don't consider myself to be a phoney person, but kind of like, more honest with myself. Maybe more honest with God. I think I've come along way in this area, but I suppose there is always room for improvement. But here's the thought that occured to me. "Be more honest, and talk less." Hah. Not a bad one though. There are times I feel like I talk so much, I'm not at all aware of the world outside my head. I want to improve that.
Heh, so with all this "thinking" what did I notice around me? Not much. I noticed that I was cold, my hair was frozen, and I was kind of happy to be going to a dance class and thinking on the terms of being healthy again.
Okay, now I have to go to class. I have Acting for the Camera (...) and Acting with Phillip Kerr (...). Yay for Theater. Then I have American Drama. Yay for more theater. Yeah.
