I just bought a WILCO cd (that's a band). They sing a song and this is the chorus that's been running through my head:

you have to lose
you have to lose
you have to learn how to die
if you wanna wanna be alive

pretty cool stuff...

I think that ressurection stuff is starting to play a part in my life. My clown class is killing me in a way, but hey, eventually I'll be dead and perhaps ressurected in that area. Hm.